Last night, someone was terribly upset with me because of certain things i said to her friend at that moment of anger, and to make the matter worst, she only get to find out about it through her friend some time later . I felt really remorseful after discovering that she was very affected and hurt by it..I hated myself for saying such insensitive stuff at that time.. don't know why i said it, perhaps to console myself at that point of time, or perhaps i was just blabbering anyhow to numb the pain deep within without knowing the consequences behind..
This person is someone very dear to me. Someone who is always so nice, kind and patient towards me, and definitely someone who does not deserve such an ill treatment from me. I keep telling myself to watch her back, encourage and guide her with my best ability, yet there are times like these showing that i have failed to do so.
I guess nobody is ever that perfect as to completely keep up with all their words and deeds they assured. We can try our best to attain that, but somehow we just can't do it, because unforseen circumstances and emotions may just engulfed us entirely and forbids us from acting rationally.
So does that mean we would always remain as the same old imperfect way as we were? Well, the key turning point lies in our dearest Heavenly Father's love. His love for us is unwavering. He is always so gracious, merciful and strong towards us in all given circumstances. Because of that, our imperfections are being made perfect.
Therefore if my focus were to be placed correctly on God before anything else,i feel that the whole situation above would be turn around.. Through my imperfections, she would put lesser expectations on humans and really learn to rely and focus on God more. This would draw her closer to Him, and also allow all her heart shaped hole insecurities to be completely filled up with the love of God.
Isn't that a situation whereby my imperfection is being made perfect through Him. The things i can't guranteed do for her, God does so on my behalf.. :)