i just came back fr church..
i felt so alien so just now..
everyone is so happily toking
abt ydae alpha camp..yet i
haf nth tok abt..i felt so
leftout..oh well..i am
drifting away..away to
very my own world..

this week wasnt reallie a gd week i guess..
i fell sick from thurs till now..fever..cough..
flu..sorethroat..everything..i want to
get well soon..gonna drink water like
camel man!

9 more daes to declare the end of my tekong
stay..i simply cant wait any longer..SOnglee
persevere!! persevere!! yes!!..yes!!!
After that, i will be going to the Airforce!
phoot! kickass! hopefully,things are better for
me over there. haha..


Anyway here some pics taken during the
training in tekong..stylo milo!..haha.. Click here!
to view it..


argh! i didnt managed to go for the alpha camp..
heard tt its a gd one..

Wats the Difference between "care" n "concern" ...
how come i dun get any of it..

yes! i am out fr tt dreadful place again..
haha..this week's training is quite fun la..
because this week is our field camp!
wah lau..at first i thot field camp is those
kind of camp whereby u pitched tent at
the field..n guess wat? its not..its pitching
basha in the middle of jungle..wat the hell..
u hafta chop off some knee level plants b4
u can start pitching..shitty man..the ground
was uneven cos undereath us are all
stones..how to slp man..haha..but thank God,
somehow i managed to slp reallie sound..heh..
guess i was too tired la..

haha..we did many interesting stuff over there..
tactical movements,firing of m16 accompanied
with some reallie lame mission..haha..so tiring..
we practically run ard tekong with 20kg of stuff
behind our back..tsk..the skin on back is tiring..
esp the shoulder side..however, it was worth it
la..i had so much fun with my section mates though
the camping terrain sucks! haha..this field camp
is reallie the extreme..never in my life..i didnt
bathed for three consequetive daes..the feeling
is high man..smell like decomposed shit with
many flies flying ard...yyeeww..

gonna catch my slp now..shall update again
soon..nitedd!

todae is a book in dae~ book in dae~
todae is a book in dae~ book in dae~
heya~ ya yi ~ hey~ Ya! All the waY!

i am going back to tekong in a few hrs
time..Back to the marching,exercising
and getting scolding routine..life is sucky
there..everydae seems the same..monday
to fri doing the same old shitty stuff over and
over again..there is practically nth u can
look 4ward to inside..oh well..*smack head*
alright..i shall be more positive..

i am feeling awkard all over in me..i dunno..
its a unhealthy feeling..issit u or mi? or issit
the both of us..y issit so that we cant talk like
how we used to talk in the past..doing foolish
and stupid things and yet enjoying wat we were
doing..telling each other not so furnie jokes but
we ended up laughing like mad..

i feel i am no longer in ur comfort zone..
Like when we are out togt ydae..u practically treat
me like a stranger..as though i nv met u before..
And yet when she came to join us later..
u became "normal" and started talking
joking ard like how u wld..

this makes me reallie wonder..wonder why
u can onli be cheerful n happie when
she is with us n when she is not..no matter
wat i do..u r always gloomy..sigh..i dunno
why are things turning out this way..issit
me or just you..and just wats on earth
is happening..

If the only way for u to be yourself
(the happie and carefree you) when
we go out is to have her with us..
i rather not go..this onli shows how big
a failure am i..my presence wun make
a difference anyway.. :(